I began my journey in drama during my junior year of high school, a decision that would ultimately shape my identity and social life in ways I never anticipated. For the first two years of high school, I found myself grappling with a sense of displacement. Having come from a local Montessori school, I had missed a critical time in the formation of lasting friendships and tight-knit cliques. While my peers were busy in their already established friend groups, I was navigating a sea of faces in a large school community that felt alienating. I bounced from one friend group to another, trying to find where I fit in, but it often felt like I was an outsider looking in. 

For those two years, I struggled to find my place, and no one seemed to embrace me fully. I was still in the process of figuring out who I wanted to be, which made it even harder to connect.

In an attempt to fit in, I tried on various identities like clothes, but none felt quite right. I joined the volleyball team, only to realize that the fast-paced, competitive nature of the sport was not who I was. Then, I ventured into track and field, which was marginally better, yet still left me feeling unfulfilled.

Everything changed during my junior year when I finally discovered some of my favorite people, a group of individuals who, like me, didn’t quite conform to the usual high school stereotypes. They were quirky, each possessing unique qualities that set them apart. It was within this newfound circle of friends that I felt truly seen and accepted. They encouraged me to try out for the spring musical, assuring me that if I didn’t enjoy it, I could simply walk away without any hard feelings. They welcomed my nervousness and celebrated my differences, creating an environment where I could truly be myself.

I already knew the head director, who recognized my anxiety about diving into something so outside my previous experiences. I was stepping into a world that seemed so distant from what I had envisioned for myself. After some contemplation, I decided to focus on costumes that first year. My role in the production allowed me to immerse myself in the vibrant world of theater without the pressure of performing on stage. I spent countless hours with some of my favorite people, crafting costumes and sharing laughter, all while slowly but surely uncovering the confidence I never knew I had. 

One of the many affirmations the directors emphasized was that everyone was welcome, regardless of their background or experience. They made it clear that anyone could try out for a role or join the crew, creating an inclusive atmosphere that celebrated individuality. I discovered an incredible array of people who exemplified this acceptance. Each individual I met was unique, bringing their quirks and perspectives to the table. It was refreshing to be surrounded by such a diverse group, where differences were not just tolerated but celebrated. The kindness and warmth radiating from my fellow cast and crew members made the theater feel like a safe haven. I formed deep connections with these amazing individuals. We supported each other, cheering on one another’s talents and encouraging each other to step outside our comfort zones. This environment not only allowed me to be myself but also inspired me to embrace the differences in others.